The only way I can feel close to you without hurting
Is by retreating into myself
And playing back the good times
Anything else especially seeing things that remind me of you
Just depresses me

The only way I can forget about you & move on is by hating you
But I can’t, I don’t even have the heart to try
You are in my system now, woven into my being
It will take a miracle to reverse that
I’m not even sure I would want that

The only way I can stay sane is by accepting the situation
Accepting that there are things beyond my control
Accepting that even though I want, I can’t have

© james wamathai