Kenya
I love you
Truth is you were my first love, my only love
I don’t care about the bad things they say about you
All the lies that they spread about you
You are mine, nothing and no one will ever make me leave you
Kenya
I love you
Truth is you were my first love, my only love
I don’t care about the bad things they say about you
All the lies that they spread about you
You are mine, nothing and no one will ever make me leave you
Kenya
The only way I can feel close to you without hurting 
Is by retreating into myself
And playing back the good times
Anything else especially seeing things that remind me of you
Just depresses me
The only way I can forget about you & move on is by hating you
But I can’t, I don’t even have the heart to try
You are in my system now, woven into my being
It will take a miracle to reverse that
I’m not even sure I would want that
The only way I can stay sane is by accepting the situation
Accepting that there are things beyond my control
Accepting that even though I want, I can’t have
© james wamathai
Let’s forget that we just met
That we don’t know each other that well
That we are as different as night & day
Let’s do it, let’s fall in love
Let us allow what we feel for each other guide us
Plot our future for us
Let this be the beginning of good things
Let’s do it, let’s date
Let’s make this permanent one day
Let’s make a home
Let’s make babies
Let’s do it, let’s dream
© james wamathai
You are someone else’s, I know
That doesn’t stop me from thinking about you
Daydreaming about us
Wishing that things were different
Stay away from you, I should & I try to
But it’s almost impossible
It doesn’t help that you are so beautiful
And you have everything I would want in a girlfriend
Feel guilty, I should
I don’t though
Is it twisted that I actually like that you are taken?
That the forbidden excites me?
I wonder what you would do if I declared my true intentions.
I wonder if I would feel the same way about you if you were single.
© james wamathai
We were having issues, my girl and I. After some discussion, we decided to cool it for a while and see other people. Later, she told me that she had met someone else. Apparently the guy was older, more mature, treated her better and gave her more space than I ever did. Given the problems we’d had I said it was fine by me. My mind viewed it positively, as a way to move on and make a fresh start while my heart had different views altogether.
When we officially broke up she sent her friend over to bring the stuff that I’d left at her place on my numerous visits. Now it was my turn. I hadn’t realized how hard it would be, letting her go. Although she was out of my life she was still very much in my heart and on my mind. That notwithstanding, I gathered all her things, put them in a box and headed to her apartment against the advice of my best friend who had insisted he takes them himself.
When I got there, the door was ajar so I let myself in. I could hear voices coming from the kitchen, hers and someone else’s. It felt wrong but I headed that way. My heart was pounding in my chest and I was insanely jealous all of a sudden since I had the feeling that the male voice belonged to the current guy in her life. To say that I was shocked when I got there and saw them laughing and in a mini-embrace is an understatement. The older guy it turned out was none other than MY DAD!!
© james wamathai
I wrote the poems below some time last year & for some reason I gave the same title. I decided to put them here but on the same post.
Poem 1
To some you are the best,
To others you are the worst
You can’t please everyone
So live your life, be yourself
That’s the only way you’ll be happy
Poem 2
Do you think that you are too blue
Or that your particular shade is not very appealing
Making you want to introduce a bit of red into your life
Or maybe a splash of green
Well don’t have to or rather you don’t need to
I like you as you are, no pluses or minuses are required
And those in your life who you mean a lot to, should too
I don’t know what the future holds for us
I don’t know where this is headed
I don’t know if we can make it
Sometimes I don’t even know if what I feel is real
I do know that I love you
And I know that I do not want to ever let you go
I would do anything to make this work,
I would do anything to keep you by my side
© james wamathai
It would be wise of you to forget about her
And move on with your life
She was great and everything
But she is your past and you should let her stay there
Getting hung up on someone who left you is not healthy
It would be nice to see you getting your life back on track again
It would be nice if you left me alone
You can’t possibly know what we shared, what she meant to me
I don’t want to move on just yet and it’s by choice
People handle things differently you know and
I’m kindly requesting you to let me take care of this, my way
It would be wise of you to respect and support my decision
© james wamathai
You are important to me,
You serve a vital purpose in my life,
If it weren’t for you
I wouldn’t have gotten this far,
I wouldn’t be this grounded
So my dear hater
Continue doing what you do
Continue spreading lies about me
Continue trash talking me
With every negative thing you say
I grow stronger, I become a better person
I need more of your venom
To get ahead, to prosper
So keep on, keep at it
© james wamathai
If I were a musician in Kenya I would:
1. Grow dreadlocks with a receding hairline like Nameless
2. Sell out when another better opportunity comes along like Didge.
3. Become successful and gain weight like Nonini.
4. Emigrate to the US like Nyashinsky..
5. Smoke weed and then deny it in interviews like a certain female Mc.
6. Represent my neighbourhood like Juacali.
7. Be controversial like Bamboo
8. Start my music career while in my thirties like Circuite
9. Wear bling and floss like Prezzo
10. Help launch my girlfriend’s career like Mustapha.
11. Use a diss song to make a comeback like Klepto.
12. Be in two music groups and also have a solo career like Wyre.
13. Be a one hit wonder like Meg C.
© james wamathai
